I Remember

I Remember

I am happy today,
but I remember many unhappy days.

I am hopeful today,

but I have experienced many hopeless days.

I am content today,

but I have experienced years of frustration and discontent.

I am not feeling alone today,

but I have experienced countless lonely days.

I am feeling surrounded by loving family today,

I have experienced countless years of family loneliness.

I am not feeling angry today,

but I have spent years trying to keep from hurting others with my anger .

I am feeling calm today,

but the aggravations seem to be ongoing and unpredictable.

I am sleeping alright today,

but I have lived 23 years with hyper-insomnia. 

I always believed in a power much greater than I could imagine.

I do know God carried me in his arms for twenty years while I was so lame.

I remember before injury and after just like all of you.

I just know our energy is wasted if we don't recognize we're chosen for specialness.

We are all meant to do something special in our time here on earth. We got a wake up call.

We were all given second, third and more chances to die, yet we were spared, for a reason.

I don't feel cursed or punished today,

but for a long time I hated the "new" me and wondered what I did to deserve it.. 

I don't have to ask why today?

I learned that when no hope shows itself we can reach and find it within ourselves.

I learned that faith can get you to the first step of hope each and every time.
I learned that we bring inspiration and  hope to so many that you never are aware.
They watch us and cannot imagine dealing with what any of us deal with.
That makes them more thankful for their own lives, se we help them be happier
We learned there is no way to change back time so lets make it easy on ourselves!!! .
We can all shine lights for each other along the way the best we can.

Debbie M. Wilson