Illusions In My Mind

Illusions

My mind drifts backwards slowly, wistfully and questionably, 

to the forks in the road. Some would call it the road less 

traveled, the path not taken, or the decision that was or was

not made, but what if? The forks in the road indicate a moment 

in time that we could have changed our course, therefore 

changing our life and our future. A time we could have taken 

a different path, a time that represents a vivid, painful
line in our minds of before and after brain injury. But if my 

mind drifts back a little further I still see pain and 

disappointment. I still see dreams that were not fulfilled. 

I still see heart-ache,loss and grief. I still see paths that 

were not taken. I see a less than perfect person, with a less 

than perfect life, if I am honest with myself. I see a different person, A person that thought she knew what she wanted and where she was going. But maybe that was a false path, only an illusion in my mind. Maybe that sense of control we thought we had over 

our lives was just an illusion. As my mind starts drifting slowlyforward in time, I see a new person. I see that the forks in the road are still there. I want to take the right path, but what if it is only an illusion? An illusion, is defined as an erroneous  perception of reality. Could that possibly be the key? If I 

consider what I know to be real, what life has taught me through all the different and difficult forks in the road, could I 

possibly see things with enhanced perception? Could I take the 

right path? I perceive an incredible amount of wasted time, wherebeauty and joy were not within my grasp, this is no illusion. I 

perceive time and energy trying to change things that were not 

within my ability to change, this is no illusion. I perceive a 

lost spark that at one time shined from within, this is no 
illusion. But as my mind drifts forward in time to this moment, 

to this fork in the road, I see that if I open my heart, I can 

again appreciate beauty and feel joy. I don’t have any extra 

energy so I will no longer waste any trying to change things I 

cannot change. And if I look really close, I see a glimmer of a 

spark from within, trying to shine brighter and brighter.

by: Warsawa   
    5-15-96