Broken Dreams

Broken Dreams

Life flies by, we make plans, we go after dreams and goals.
We think we are indestructible, that nothing will stand in 

our way, then is a split second of time, life changes and 

the future with it. If you haven’t had a brain injury, I 

can’t expect you to understand, the lostness, the loneliness, 

the insecurity about who I really am.

I have spent years trying to make the best of a bad situation.
There were many hours spent believing everything would be 

mended, by smiling, learning, hoping that someday it would 

magically change. I was waiting for the change, that gave me 

back what I felt like I had lost. But the only change that 

will happen has got to come from within myself.

But reality is, I have had to come to terms with the many 

broken dreams. I had to learn to depend on others for things 

I would have never dreamed of. The years have taught me 

acceptance, the broken dreams have taught me humility.
My time is now spent planning a new future, developing new 

dreams and goals. Never quite sure if they will come true, 

but hope is a gift that I give myself. 
 
But the disappointment is always there just under the surface, 

of what could have been. The years have not taken away the 

wounds, they have just taught me to deal with them. The internal struggle everyday to do the things that were once so easy can
still make me sad. But then I look around and I know that it 

could be so much worse, and I feel thankful. I still believe 

broken dreams can be mended, and I choose to spend my 
energy there.

I have many broken dreams, but am learning to replace them 

with new realistic dreams. There have been many disappointments, but I am learning to replace them with hope. No, I will never 

be quite the same, but I have learned to be satisfied 
with who I now am. I don’t have to like the changes fate has 

made in my life, but I do have to deal with them. Yes , the 

broken dreams are still there, but new plans and dreams keep 
my mind busy.

Sometimes I wonder if broken dreams were meant to be, to change 

the course of our life.

 Warsawa
 8-19-96